If you're single n ready to mingle. Your Valentine's Day plans are rest
assured.

No hassle n just dazzle to The Scarlet's, Anti Valentine's Day (Single's
Party)

This Valentine's Day, do not despair if you are single!!
Nothing to lose and lots to gain. Come and join us for a Singles Party on
Sat,Feb 14th!!

Games to be played and prizes to be won!

See you there!!!

Labels: clubbing, events

Ryousuke was here at 9:12 PM

Blur

The 2nd TUBORG party [which had been pending for 3 months] :

Wei Chong's 20th birthday party 19/8 :

大佬 (Big Brother), Wei Lun & Sam~ Wei Chong missing..

Hari-Raya Part-timer at Robinsons, The Garden 1/10 :

Stupid job - the management team delayed our payment like over 3 weeks!

Some pictures from the 14th World Routes Development Forum 2008 :

I prefer this one better ^^

Was and still is looking for permanent job, I think I should have some spare time to update my blog now and then ^^

P.S. Next blogpost would be "My 1st Short Film Participation" & "My Portfolio Shoot"..

P.P.S. I'm lacking of topics to blog, maybe I should really buy a camera and bring it along anywhere I go - snapping pictures to get some inspirations ^^

Ryousuke was here at 12:50 PM

A long wait till The HENNESSY ARTISTRY Event Featuring SHAYNE WARD:

Labels: events, freebies, Hennessy Artistry, jobs

Ryousuke was here at 3:29 PM

At LONG last, finally I can be on the line at home~ I can't imagine that I really gone through 7 weeks without the connection of Internet - HORRIFYING!



So let's start with the 1st TUBORG party:

My hair looked damn nice that day wei~

Honestly, he's damn handsome and muscular HAHA

Group picture

My evil twins - Forbes, and Marcus..

And NO, he's not molesting me!

[The 2nd TUBORG party post will be pending until Zi Yin send me the pictures..]

My first TV Commercial:

Yamaha TVC crew

Sam Jeremy Loren

Steph Sam Loren Mark Aiwa

I'm aware that my blogpost this time is quite short than usual, cause it's been a while since I was blogging and those events are really too DAMN long ago.. Well I can assure you the next post won't be so, cause it's SHAYNE WARD!

Hennessy Artistry event featuring SHAYNE WARD!

STAY TUNE!

P.S. Only invited person only.. And guess what - I GOT THE TICKETS !!!

Labels: so called 'Malaysia Boleh'

Ryousuke was here at 3:52 PM

By now, it's already 2 weeks since my modem's down.. Don't blame me, blame the c2pid SLOWMYX & TMNUT!

Being not able to check my mails, friendster and MSN is kinda frustrating.. Moreover, having all the posts ready but can't upload it - makes it even worse~

All and all will be up as soon as my modem fixed, mostly this week..

*Darth Vader's voice* Be patient, my friend ^^

Labels: so called 'Malaysia Boleh'

Ryousuke was here at 11:46 AM

Ya, the month of Gh*st had came~ If you haven't notice, I had changed the song in this blog to My Chemical Romance - Helena early this month [and it will still be, for the rest of this month, so bear with me].. As I mentioned, it's dedicated for Mr. Tee Kok Kwee at first, and now add on to Mrs. Goh T.T


Let me talk a bit more about them:

Mr. Tee Kok Kwee is a customer at my previous company.. He's more than just a customer, he's a friend of mine, more to say, even a father! He doesn't act like those stupid fella whom had the thoughts "Customer is always right"~ He's nice to everyone and doesn't hesitate to benefit others at the lost of his himself..

He passed away at July 2006 due to work accident..

Mrs. Goh is the mother of my Aunt Adele.. To be honest, I don't have good feelings toward my Aunt Adele [due to some family businesses]~ Mrs. Goh, however, did spent a few weeks living in my house after the 'incidents' (Though she claimed that it's for medical purpose, but I knew her main purpose is to re-build our relationships and trusts toward Aunt Adele~).. One thing I have to say is, despite the fact is how well she'd been educated (She's a principal of a secondary school), her daughther - Aunt Adele is totally lack of integrity! [But that's not the point, so I'll just pass..] Anyway, she did make me feel her sincerity and kindness during her stay~

She passed away early this month due to cancer..


I knew we are all mortals, and we will die eventually.. But why, why those kind-hearted people at their maturity age, whom at the point where they gonna start a different stage of their life?? Doesn't good people deserves to live longer than those wicked and bad people??

What I can conclude is -

P.S. TUBORG Green Beat Party post this Sunday - after I get the photos~

Labels: RIP

Ryousuke was here at 2:51 AM

Basically, almost everyone was there for FLO RIDA! The party went crazy as he appeared..

Imagine serving drinks among this CROWD~ Ya, thats what I did..

Kira Yamato or Yagami Light??

I'm confused as well.. =.="

I'll end this post with a proper one then ^^

P.S. I'm going to the TUBORG Green Beat Party this Friday @ Soho, K.L. - Three Kingdoms to me more exact~ In fact, I'm one of the lucky 25 people in Malaysia to win the pass to the event, with a free bucket of TUBORG of course ^^ This time, I definitely won't let my digital camera die out AGAIN!

Labels: events, Green Beat, Hennessy Artistry, TUBORG

Ryousuke was here at 11:16 AM

RUUMS, KL

Strength : Big dance floor + Nice music
Weakness : Too many LALA girls and boys [like what most ppl said..]

ALOHA, KL

Strength : None for me, SERIOUSLY.. [If you count chinese rock music, then that's one~]
Weakness : The music - Indie & Chinese rock songs (etc Beyond) ONLY!

I went there once only, and NEVER anymore.. The environment kinda sucks, more suitable for uncle maybe [since there're a lot of female Chinese dancer whom at their mid 30 or 40 dressing in bikinis]~

Scarlet, The Curve Damansara

Strength : Cool environment
Weakness : Hard to get in

Christmas 2007 celebration.. Good atmosphere, heard that the club will be re-renovate every few months according to a survey done by few thousands of female~ Guess I think that means OUTSTANDING ! Unless you knew someone from the inside, or else you'll suffer waiting a few hours for your way to get in ^^

Bar Celona, Sunway Pyramid

Strength : A lot of HANDSOME GUYS and GORGEOUS LADIES
Weakness : Dance floor [not big enough]

Went there during CNY this year.. I have to say, it's one of the finest club I had been set my foot in before~ The only thing is the dance floor.. Don't get me wrong, it's quite big, just not big ENOUGH~ While you open such an over-rated club at a high class area (Sunway) where ppl killed to get in, there's always lack of bigger space =.="

Maison, KL

Strength : DJ GOLDFISH + OVER-PACKED
Weakness : [still] OVER-PACKED

I definitely got hooked on Maison.. I remembered that I mentioned this before, don't go to Maison before 12 am, because DJ Goldfish hasn't arrived yet~ Well this is the one and only club which people actually pay the entrance fee to see the DJ did their job.. The whole club is, for the lack of a worse word, LIFELESS, without DJ Goldfish~ Despite its small capacity, which some found it nice and some don't, this club is still over-crowded everyday =.="

P.S. The girls here is as "fierce" as guys ! [Not literally, go there and find it out yourself what I meant..]



I don't know why people so cynical about clubbing people.. I mean, just because we went clubbing once in a while, doesn't mean that we're as bad as those criminals or gangsters out there~ It's just a kind of de-stress, like people like to go to gym while others maybe playing computer games..

I always mention that CLUBBING = MUSIC + ALCOHOL + CIGARETTES~ And for non-smoker like me (only 3 sticks in year 2008 for my whole life doesn't count okay..), ALCOHOL is just merely a way to get high, the main core is MUSIC !

[20/7 UPDATE]

I went to Hennessy Artistry Pillar Event @ Bukit Kiara last night.. Well for your information, not as an invited guest~ Turned out that it's too late when I found out the invitation can be booked online a few weeks before~ So the only way to sneak in is as a WORKER ^^ Well it wasn't as good as I expected at first though..

As a result, every inches of my body's still won't stop aching, as the crowd is CRAZY back then~
So forgive me for this simple update =.=" (No picture available for the event, since my digital camera expectedly ran out of battery ZZZ Will talk bout the event next week..)

BTW I realized that I left out Zouk KL in last week's post, so here it is:

Zouk, KL

Strength : High class
Weakness : Strict security

Went there at year 2005.. It supposedly to be the first club I went, but I didn't count it as one since I went there for some sort of product introduction, not CLUBBING~ Anyway, by 'high class', I mean it seems like a lot of cool people will hang out there and the atmosphere is quite relaxing ^^ But too bad it's STRICTLY for people above 21 only.. Even though there're special events with no restrictions sometimes, the guard will still TOSS you out after the event ends if you're under 21 ZZZ

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Won't go into too details.. Because for one thing, the actual memories will always be the best if you keep it inside your heart & for another, I'm not quite remember the details and I don't wanna lie about it ^^

First Dream - The 5th Love Story : CM

It was a dream that she returned from UK.. We sat on a bus station near my house the whole night, talked about almost everything, until the daylight came out~

Second Dream - The 6th Love Story : W

It was a dream that we finally get together.. We spent all the time together hugging, kissing, laughing, anything a sweet couple would do~

Third Dream : CL

Married with CL.. We were eating noodles in this restaurant (which served 2 bowls at a time) later on, and my [primary school] teacher asked me about it =.=" A wierd dream, ya~

In real life, I never had feelings about her - CL.. In fact, I'm actually doesn't feel nice about her [and her friends] due to an event~ As I awoke, me myself also felt kinda strange..

Will decide the issues I'm gonna concentrate on in the next post~

Labels: aloha, bar celona, clubbing, clubs, dreams, maison, relationship, romance, ruums, scarlet

Ryousuke was here at 6:07 PM

First of all, I just finished my assignments.. And since now it's already 10.27 pm, I don't think I still manage to post up 'THE DREAMS' post, so I'll leave it to the next post~






Third, and finally, I CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN, AND IT LOOKS DAMN NICE! It's like took me FOREVER to find the correct HTML to do so ZZZ Anyway, all of the credits goes to HER !



P.S. I should probably start looking for new issues for my blog.. I will be run out of things to blog after 'THE DREAM' post =.="

Labels: blog skin, gathering

Ryousuke was here at 10:26 PM

If you went back to the past and changed something [POINT OF CHANGE], the present will most likely be altered.. But, since the present is already exist, thus it creates a whole new timeline~ So instead of time-travel back to Point A - where you came from, you will now time-travel to Point B - a whole new present..

In this case, I don't think you will be able to time-travel back to the exact present where you came from~

So, the answer can be YES and NO at the same time for this question..

And of course, all these theories were just my thoughts and on paper, no experiment can be perform unless we have a time machine right~

The example for this question would be the short story and also film - "A Sound of Thunder"

Last but not least, if you have different opinions on what I just wrote, please~ Enlighten me!


P.S. This blog is starting to get very scientific post by post ^^

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To be honest, I'm not in a mood of updating this last story of mine, since Euro 2008 FINAL is less than 4 hours.. If I wanna catch it on screen, I will have to get my eyes some rest since I have classes the whole day tomorrow~ But well, a promise is a promise, I have to keep my words =.="

I didn't mention this on my previous post..
The reason I resigned from the job is to focus on my study~
[My foundation started at January 2007]

However,
I did stay working until March,
because I still need some time to bear the thought of maybe can't see W anymore in the future..
[Of course the CNY bonus was another reason,
but it's nothing compared with her for me~]

While I thought I was never gonna get over W,
that's when I met V..
It was May,
at my first class of the subject - Business~
[I also found out that she also attended the Psychology class with me later..]

We didn't actually talk to each other,
not until June,
when our Psychology lecturer grouped us together in a session~
I still remember that it's about sharing your most terrible experience..

I talked about how hard it was to be in a working environment,
especially when it comes to "Office Politics"~
At one point,
I thought I was gonna cry,
at least there're tears running in my eyes~
[Ya I'm too sensitive -.-"]
Quite embarrassing though..

The day I really starting to know her was the mid of August..
During the sem-break,
I was asked to join them to Sunway Lagoon~
The trip went well eventually,
and we all had fun..
A very memorable trip ^^

And of course,
there's always a special day for my story..
For this one,
it's my college's HMC Prom Night~

A few weeks before the prom,
I plucked up my courage to ask her to go to prom with me,
as my partner..

Her answer was quite shocking though:
"Sure, why not? We can go together what..
But no need partner lar, can't we all go as single??"
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

That's how I became the driver that night ^^
After fetching her and other friends,
we went to Prince & Resident Hotel..

As I predicted,
the prom was kinda sucks~
I knew it long before that night,
because of the way they planned and managed things,
made a noob planner like me,
also could forsee the fall of it..

"Can you imagine that after you pay RM100+ for the ticket months ago, but you don't have a seat,
not even a glass of water the whole night??"
It's not only a few of them,
it's more than than 5 PEOPLE!
[Most of them are my friends..]

The only explaination is that they sold more tickets than the actual seats,
yet they still claimed the night was very SUCCESSFUL the next day..
WTF!

Anyway,
though it's such a mess that night,
but it's very meaningful for me..
We talked a lot that night,
and we knew each other a lot deeper ^^

On our way back,
she told me that someone [whom I knew] confessed to her~
It's not a surprising news,
since she did have a lot of admirers [as I know]..

But later that she also told me that,
she don't wanna step into a relationship while still studying~
(I take it as a hint, or you wanna call it warning?? HAHA)



I think that's all for this story.. Since the ending is still shrouded in mysteries, I will not go on talking about it~ In the previous post, I sort of mentioned that I will tell her my feelings before this weekend.. Well, I kinda noticed how STUPID am I now~

Labels: big words, butterfly effect, love stories, one-sided love, relationship, seventh love, theories

Ryousuke was here at 7:28 PM

Well, I had thought it over, and I had decided to postpone the 7th story [so as the Butterfly effect theory] 1 more week later..

Why?? Because I think that, those 6 stories I had been told before are already part of history - unchangable~ But this one, the 7th story, is still consider as the present.. And I bet once I write the story out, most of this blog's readers [who are also my colleagues] will find out who she is~ Though as a matter of fact, I knew some of them already did..

By the way, it's a bit rude to tell it here [in public] also, while the end of story is still shrouded in mysteries.. So, what I'm gonna do in the coming week is - to tell her about my feelings~

Yep, that's right.. You saw what you saw~ But folks, it's not a confession I'm talking about here, it's just MERELY telling her my feelings over the past 11 months.. I mean, LITERALLY, if that's what you want to know~

P.S. At the mean time, I don't think I will be stepping into a relationship few years in the future..

That's all for now, ADIOS~

Ryousuke was here at 4:11 PM

Since I'm doing a business degree, I might as well compare these two elements I recently involved in - Business & Relationship.. I did, somehow, found there're a lot of similiarities between them [Not to mention differences, but that's what a metaphor is about, right?? Use a word to indicate another word which is totally different from its literal meaning, sure there're differences =.=" So please, drop it for just a while~]





Part I

Both business and relationship need investment.. For business, operating time, modal, and finally, the choice of which market to start your business ; For relationship, dating/whatsoever time, money (don't tell me TRUE LOVE need no money~ How about meals, movie tickets, transport??), and finally, the choice of which girl to start your relationship!

Wise people invest their assets on business/relationship which worth it and have potential growth in the future.. No people wanna waste their time on things they knew which would be a loss in the end~


Part II

No matter how much time or money you invested in it, you still might end up closing down/breaking up~ It's because there're too many variables in the process, enough to influence the desired outcomes.. Plus, there're so many similiar businesses/ boys & girls out there, there's no guarantee your customer/partner will hold his or her loyalty onto you, right??


Part III

No matter it's in business or relationship, people intend to foresee the future.. People in business foresee to explore new markets, which then turn it into profit ; People in relationship foresee to avoid any possible way which would leads to an undesired outcome, like breaking up~

In both cases, if the undesired outcomes are unavoidable, people would then even stopping themselves from starting it at the first point..


Part IV

There is this famous quote by Benjamin Franklin,






Part V

People in business have 2 ultimate goals, PROFIT & PUBLICITY ; while people in relationship have 2 goals too, HAPPINESS & (to kill) LONELINESS [MARRIAGE for a certain people, but not many nowadays~].. Both goals of the business and relationship, even though might seems different, somehow related to each other..

For business, once you gain PUBLICITY (good one, but also applied for the opposite under some circumstances), PROFIT comes along easily !

For relationship, people always date for HAPPINESS and to kill LONELINESS.. But people who were looking for relationship always presume that it's a cause and effect situation - You date to kill LONELINESS (because you can't stand it), and after that you can gain HAPPINESS~

Well, it's nothing wrong to presume that, and I know for a fact that a lot people did think like that, but it also can be blame as the main cause of why there are so many tragic incidents in relationship happened nowadays~



So the lesson here is, don't ever date for either ONLY HAPPINESS or to kill LONELINESS.. It should be the ultimate goal (aka effect), not the cause of starting up a relationship~

P.S. If you have any constructive opinions regarding these points, feel free to leave a comment in my cbox

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For those who don't know me,
I didn't study Form 6,
which I suppose to at year 2006..

I was totally sick about my secondary school,
which had tons of (inconsiderable) strict rules~
Even though they did offer me full scholarship,
but I still insist to leave..
(No point to take it right,
better leave it to someone else who really deserve it..)

Right after Chinese New Year at year 2006,
when I planned to start finding job,
I met an accident..
As a result,
I was injured quite badly on almost every part of my body..
(The scars were too big to heal and they can be spotted easily, even now~)

Luckily,
it isn't a matter of life and death..
But I still had to report myself to the clinic every 2 days,
so I had to postpone my job hunting~

Finally,
my injuries recovered around May..
(Yep, it takes me almost 2 months~)
That's when I found this job..

I planned to take on 2 jobs at first,
1 daily and 1 night~
So when I saw this article which was recruiting office boys,
I called up the manager to ask..

The manager told me that the job is not available anymore,
but he did ask me whether I'm interested in working as a night-shift attendance..
I found that the address is quite near to my house [easy transportation],
so I decided to give it a try and agreed for an interview~

Of course,
again - with my 'magnificent' resume,
I was being hired~

One thing I wanna emphasize is that,
this is a BIG company I'm talking about..
It's a subsidiary company of the listed BERJAYA GROUP !
While normally it takes few weeks to get response from the headquarters' HR department,
I got the confirmation call from the manager HIMSELF 2 hours after the interview !
[This part is for those hypocrites out there whom had a problem with my resume before ^^ Not to show off, but just to prove you all were wrong, DAMN wrong~]

During my day one working there,
I met W~
She's a Business Development Executive,
29 years old back then,
though she looked like only just 21 or 22 [I shit you not..] ^^

After we both chat a bit during our free time,
we found out that we're DAMN ALIKE !
Taste of food, sense in fashion, principles of living,
YOU NAME IT !
(Sometimes I even doubt that she's my missing twin,
if only our age range isn't that big ^^)

Even though she was a supervisor,
we both talked non-stop like nobody business and the voices became louder and louder..
Finally the manager could took it no more,
and asked us to lower our voices HAHA ^^
(All these happened at the first day~)

The job is actually quite simple,
just collect/pay out the money and serve customers drinks only..
I got familiar with all the procedures within a month,
and became one of the most hardworking & effecient employees in the company later..
(According to the managers~ Yes, THEIR words!)

Despite the fact that the job paid well,
(more than RM3xxx include basic salary, overtime and all the fancy perks.. One of the reasons why I ended up only focus on this job instead find an extra one~)
there's only 1 drawback :
All customers that I had to deal with are either rich or/and have some underworld backgrounds..
(That's when I started to learn about the true side of this society and reality~)

The thing I can't tolerate the most is,
those (rich) customers always take advantages on the employees..

Well it's one kind of harassment in the service area which you can't avoid~
I didn't face any of it during my employment since I'm a male,
but those female employees did had a horrible time..
(Though one or two of them very enjoy it ZZZ~)

As I mentioned,
W looked younger than her age and also very pretty (some say mature..),
she did get molest a lot eventually~
But she had no resentment against anyone,
and she smiles a lot all the time,
even during her most depressed moment..
(Optimism, another similiarities ^^)

As my shift was permanent night,
while hers changed every week,
the chance of we meeting each other was quite low..
The time we spent working together, however long it was, always flow faster than usual~

Whenever I felt unhappy due to customer or whatever reasons,
she's always there to cheer me up..
But she never know that,
one smile of her,
is already enough to keep me motivated and energetic again the whole day~

Of course,
there're still a lot of things happened between us both which were significantly important,
but there're too many to tell~
So I will remain it as a secret,
and keep it deep down my heart..

I always think that,
why it always have to be like these??
I'm DAMN sure that she's my SOULMATE !
Only to be born in a different times~

I never think that age is a problem,
but she did..
She only treat me like her son~
Yep she told me so..
(But not because of my confession.. I didn't confess to her~)

If only I was born earlier,
I will definitely go for her,
NO QUESTION ASKED !

All I can say is :
WRONG TIMING,
AGAIN !
(How sad it is..)


Sorry that I blabbered a lot about my previous job.. But I can't help it, since W is part of it~ The only thing I was reluctant to resign from the company back then, was that I couldn't see her anymore.. I'm still suffering from the thought of it, even now - after these 2 years~

I knew I would never found another girl which is so perfect for me (like her), at least not in this lifetime~ As for her, I do pray that, she will found her loved one someday, a guy whom can make her become the most happiest girl alive~

[Almost forgot, she's the 2nd girl that appeared in my dreams.. Will have a major update about those dreams after the 7th story ^^]

P.S. The 7th story, which I afraid the most to reveal, will be up this weekend~

Labels: big words, love stories, one-sided love, relationship, sixth love

Ryousuke was here at 3:53 PM

Gastralgia + Flu = Sleep & rest all day + No mood to update blog..

The 6th story, this weekend.. I promise ^^

Labels: sick

Ryousuke was here at 5:25 PM

I saw these two articles yesterday~ I think it's quite interesting and meaningful, so I combine it, modify a bit and post it up here.. It's in chinese though :

一般上，男女之间存在好几种关系：

恋人

属于白天的，见得了光，炽热灿烂炫丽，可以温暖你一天的心情。

多数是刚刚坠入爱河，相识不久的男女，每天重要的事情是谈谈情说说爱，单纯得很！责任少，负担小，感情待升华。

情人

是属于夜晚的，通常见光即死，然而，却可以驱走寂寞的夜，迷人又销魂。

（大部分）男人最盼望的一种关系，没有天长地久的约束，没有柴米油盐的烦恼，不在乎名分，红粉知己只负责陪你花钱，吃喝玩乐。

爱人

是属于一辈子的，责任义务加上承诺，可以相依相偎，共同走过风雨，甘苦与共，直到天荒地老。

在中国，夫妻称彼此为“爱人”，满贴切的。因为有爱，才可以结为夫妻。但是，夫妻间的爱人关系，也必须不断加油经营，要不然，久而久之，爱的感觉淡化，很可能就由“爱人”转变成“亲人”：没有了火花，缺少了激情。

性伴侣

只有肉体关系，没有感情瓜葛；只讲身，不讲心；有需要，就在一起；关系可以维持一段长时间，也可能几夜风流之后，就各奔东西。



结论

恋人和情人关系，与爱人关系最大的不同是：前者不是建立在为了未来的婚姻基础上（或还未曾考虑至那么遥远）。

(If you don't know chinese, don't worry about it then.. It's something like common sense which you will know automatically once you reach a certain age..)

当然，我会对这2篇文章有兴趣 + 贴在我的部落格，是有原因的……
近几个星期以来，我的部落格被某些无聊人士“狂轰滥炸”。
他们阅读了我之前发表的爱情故事后（纵然这不是始因），不厌其烦地一再跟我争论。

当我经考虑经济（我不相信仍未经济独立的人能对一份感情作出承诺）、未来和其他种种因素后，将我对她（们）的爱意深埋心底时（备注：我是爱人未婚人版），这班小子竟然对此说三道四：
“不成熟的想法”“（你这样子）抵死你一辈子交不到女友”
“不试过哪知道？”<-- 看到喜欢的女子就去追，发现不适合时就抛弃她？
更好笑的是，他们全是一班小我1~2岁的黄毛小子，竟将我的原则称之为“保守”……
真是感叹一句：“世风日下啊！”

可能这本书适合他们翻阅也说不定~ （我本人也很想买 ^^）

直译：学习如何爱得更有意义

“我将在茫茫人海中寻访我唯一之灵魂伴侣。得之，我幸；不得，我命！”

-徐志摩

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Again, if you don't know chinese, ignore it (It's just my old-man thinking.. Ya, "OLD", not 'MATURE'~), and proceed to my 5th story :

This story isn't going to be too long,
because there's nothing remotely important happened actually..

By the end,
it's just merely feelings~
So it's more like a puppy love compared to all others..
(To avoid confusion from the 1st LS, let's call her CM instead~)

I knew CM since I was 8 years old,
the moment I was chosen into the best class in my standard..

She's a kind + gentle + smart + pretty girl..
If I'm not mistaken,
she was also a prefect since then~
She's that kind of girl whom you can't pick anything bad out of her,
you know??

We went through our primary school life in the same class since then~
And to be honestly,
that's all about us..
We didn't even chat with each other back then,
because I was quite a nerd and only focus on my study (and peeping C ^^)~

All that I knew was,
she went to a government secondary girl school for further education..
At year 2,
she transferred to UK,
since her parents were living there during the past few years for business purpose~

The first time I saw her since primary school was at the welcome party (that I mentioned in the last post)..
She came back to Malaysia during school break,
and her friends threw her a welcome party~
Nothing happened either,
except that I found she became prettier..
That was year 2004~

After she went back to UK,
we still keep in touch with each other through MSN..
That's the time when the seed of admire grew within me~

At year 2005,
though she mentioned she won't came back,
but since her parents had to due to some sort of reasons,
and the tickets is now being taken care,
so she did came back anyway~

When she's back,
I pluck up my courage to ask her out..
She did agree back then~
But it wasn't a date,
since I said I only wanna discuss something with her..

That day went well,
we grabbed something to eat at where her friend's was working,
which also happened to be near to my (previous) company,
and we had a few nice conversations..

Anyhow,
she was sick that day,
due to the STUPID SMOG..
(Unluckily, it happens and clashes with her school break every year - JULY!)
So when I asked her for dinner (at a restaurant which I had booked),
she kindly refused~
I sent her home after that..

We did keep on chatting through the internet,
and even after she went back to UK again~
But because she's getting more busy day by day and seldom (or never) be on the line,
we didn't chat anymore..

P.S. She was one of the girls in my dream I mentioned about, but more on that later~



As I said, it's all just about feelings by the end of it~ Feelings of being so happy and comfortable around her, feelings of her might be THE ONE, and so on and so forth.. But we can't live our lives based solely on feelings right??

People said that this is a flaw of mine, but I never think it was.. It's a blessing and a curse at the same time, of being able to overthink these much, but I really felt thankful of it~ It's always a good thing, at least for me, to think one step ahead than other people, no matter the 'future' I saw is good or bad.. Though it might comes with certain drawbacks, I still think that it's worth it~ So why don't you hypocrites take it as what it is, or leave this blog instead?? (You can write whatever you want on yours though, I don't have a problem with that.. Not anymore~)

We all aren't Master of LOVE, not even close.. In our society where even marriage is not the perfect ending for relationship, as for the existence of divorce, who are you to judge me, some more it's based on your set of rules and thoughts??

Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate your efforts of trying to correct me (which you assumed that you are and I'm wrong), just not your satirical words..

Heads-up : New taunting messages in my cbox will be deleted straight away in the future~

Labels: big words, fifth love, love stories, one-sided love, relationship

Ryousuke was here at 2:36 PM

Since my car got a bit problem, I had to drive slowly to the destination.. Somehow, when we almost reached Kuantan, I was being told the destination had been changed to Cherating~ I was like 'WTF?? I didn't study the map of the way to Cherating lerh'.. So, we ended up being lost in those kampung-kampung~ Normally the trip will only take about 3 hours, but we took 4.5 hours instead.. When we arrived at Cherating, it's already 8.30pm~ While we're already felt exhausted, finding a hotel room (during weekend) is another suicide mission for us~ Nonetheless, we gave up after several attempts and chose to eat our dinner cum supper first..









After we had our bath and went for a walk on the beach, we played some BlackJack's and went to sleep (Ya, like around 3.30 am, after watching Flintstone HAHA ^^)



We woke up at 6 to watch the sunrise, but too bad the cloud was too thick that cover up the whole scene~ We waited till 8 am to finally see the sun, and sure enough, camwhoring all the way while waiting ^^

I believe I can fly~

After camwhoring, we went mamak for brunch.. After slightly filled up our stomaches, we went back to the beach again~ We started playing football on the beach (I'm on fire that day~ Non-stop assisting & HIGH accuracy passing), and then went swimming in the ocean..

Labels: forth love, love stories, one-sided love, relationship, vacation

Ryousuke was here at 9:48 PM

Yep, a break.. Which mean, no stories this week~ As I mentioned, the previous story had been a geol to me.. So I guess I'll just take this post as a break to explain a bit more about my perspective towards relationship~

If you didn't notice, my cbox had been spamming by a guy called Hansern lately.. Think I should explain a bit about it~ About last week, I had been in an argument at my friend's, Tzia's blog.. All started about his hatred to the lyrics of the song 'NO PROMISES' by Shayne Ward~ (In case you dunno, I LOVE the song!) And of course, the argument turned ugly.. After I explained several times politely but being responded by personal attacks (which he didn't put in his blogpost regarding this argument), finally I can take it no more but to give out the phrase 'settle it face to face, by FISTS or by WORDS, your pick!' (no point being polite to a person who has no manner~).. Well, he thought I was gonna go to him and hit him up, which I'd mean to give concession of which he's better at.. By then, I thought everything's gonna be fine, as he remained silence for a while~ When I'm about to let the thing go, as the blog owner came to me & I agreed to stop, he again brought up the issue, giving me his work address & other information to provoke me..

As a friend of mine, people usually knew that I can tolerate on almost everything but one, BEING CHALLENGED! Sure enough, if he want a WAR, I'll give him one.. Let him know that being cocky ON THE NET is a total different thing compared to being cocky in reality~

Well, those above are the hatred part.. Sorry if it annoy you, I can't help ^^ Here's the funny part, later that I know, he's just a SEVENTEEN (17) years old boy.. Suddenly, I felt that I was damn stupid argue'ing with a kid about the ROMANCE of LOVE whom PUBIC HAIR haven't grown long enough yet (excuse me ^^)~ He claimed that he's only physically immature, not mentally.. Guess what, a KID who suggesting 'Flirting is okay, and just go for her..If you found out later that you two are not meant to be, just break up!' is mentally mature?? COME ON.. On top of that, he started to pick on the words in my blog.. Of all the time, I didn't say that my english is PERFECT (And being good at it doesn't mean that you can use it as a weapon of personal attacks!).. What I can say is, what I wrote in my blog is definitely sincere (my resume, experiences, thoughts..)~ If you really hate it so much, why you bother to come here at the first place, and over & over again after that??

Here's the conclusion.. What had happened made me realize that, there's still a lot of people outside there concerning nothing about the TRUE LOVE.. LOVE is about RESPONSIBILITIES! And btw this is specially for Hansern (if he still read my blog, which I doubt..) : The reason why I don't wanna start a relationship is because I care so much about her that I don't want her to suffer even a bit in the future, for externalities like her SAFETY, FINANCIAL, HAPPINESS & FUTURE~ It's never about me, it's HER! If I can't give her what she deserved to get, I'd rather choose not even to confess, bury my feelings deep down my heart, and let her find some other guy which she'll be better off.. You can call me dumbass or idiot in this case, I won't mind.. It's just my principles that I won't build my happiness on top of other's suffering (so to speak in mandarin~).. I won't regret it even though I may not find HER in the rest of my life ^^
Like the singer 刘若英 chinese song's lyrics :
很爱很爱你
所以愿意
不牵绊你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
Guess it's too much for an underage KID to take huh~

One last thing, I never thought that losing a 'friend' who doesn't understand me is a lost of mine.. But I do feel disappointed that, when he/she was, he/she didn't trust and have faith in me but choose to believe other people's one-sided thoughts before finding out the whole truth.. Some of them did, but still, some of them didn't~ What can I say??

P.S. When you're viewing this blogpost, I'm mostly on my way to Kuantan (again, my title~).. It's been a long time since I had a vacation ^^ Next week, the 4th love story~

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Well, lucky for me, I managed to see this KIDDO's spamming on my blog's cbox again before I go to Kuantan.. KIDDO, I did reply you once politely the first time, but you're the one who wanna insisted on the definition of the words 'NO PROMISES' non stop and started to annoy me..

And what I wrote in my blog is about me.. If you felt offended, go write your own post about it! I know you're a person who live your life to the full, which I take to mean, without caring the incoming consequences.. But don't talk like all other people are just like you KID.. Think further and get a life!

What I wrote so far is as true as my heart : The resume of working since 8 years old, experiences of getting involved in the dark side of the society, thoughts regarding of relationships~ Cause I take this blog more like a place to keep my memories rather than a place to attract attention (of course, also to let my real friends in reality to know more about me).. So I don't care if there's no one else anymore viewing this blog, I am who I am.. If you still insisted to call me a bragger, your choice~ I need not show you the evidence, neither you'll understand bout it.. (and BTW it's only your own opinion that I'm a bragger, I didn't see any other fella second it~)

Oh yeah, I'm twisting the story?? You're the one who's garbling the statement here.. I didn't see you post up all the quotes of arguments either~ And PARDON ME, you're not PICKING UP A FIGHT?? Wow, that's just came out unexpectedly I guess.. You're the one started all of these over again, while I already promised Tzia to stop, way to bluff it!

And I did, stop the spamming cause I found out that no use argue'ing with a KIDDO.. Won leads to people's conclusion that I'm bullying, while lost leads to the outcomes where you get even more cocky~ So what's the point??

And you, spamming my cbox non-stop?? Come on, it just showed how immature you're while you claimed you aren't!

Labels: big words, relationship

Ryousuke was here at 2:57 PM

This time, I update the blog earlier than weekend, because everybody seems like enjoying reading this blog (or should I say, the stories) and asked me to keep it up-to-date~ ^^ To be honest, I'm quite flatter, yet lazy also HAHA :) For Tzia's suggestion of putting some pictures in this blog, I will consider about it and mostly will start by the next post ^^

As for usual, I'll talk a bit about my recent life before starting the story.. (Yeah, curse it on me!) For these 2 weeks, I had been to Maison every thursday.. Aiya, Ladies Nite mar~ I had to say, all DJ's and Emcee's there sucks till the MAX! Except DJ GOLDFISH lar of course.. It's like I almost slept in the club already, and then when he's on the stage, his music gimme a WAKE UP CALL, as well as to all other people! Everybody's just getting psyched and crazy by the end of the night~ Too bad he only performed 2 or 3 hours every thursday.. But still, it worth every penny that I spent and beat all other DJ's combined!

Back to the previous post, I did mention that this 3rd story is (one of) the best.. Well, not only it's good, but it's also the point where I had really discover my direction when it comes to dealing with relationship! I mean, not PUPPY LOVE anymore~ Here it goes:

My feelings toward C did remain until year 2004,
even after the rumor that she had found herself a bf..
(That rumor turned out to be true in the future~)

With some sad and emotional feelings,
I had attended a friend's birthday party at Marrybrown Fast Food Restaurant in Jaya Jusco Kepong..
(To be more accurate, it's the son of my mother's friend, which is only 10 years old that time..)

At there,
I saw a girl who in-charge of the event was playing around happily with the kids..
I didn't notice that till I recall of it few weeks later~
But I did see a flyer of recruiting new waiters in the restaurant..

Since there's a proverb in chinese called "lost in LOVE, win in career/gambling", (情场失意，事业/赌场得意)
I just went back there few days later to interview..
Coincidently,
the girl who interviewing me is the one who I saw during the birthday party..

Her name is P,
a 20 years old girl who just in the half-way of her degree and came out to work..
Despite the fact that she's really pretty and my first impression of her is good,
nothing remotely special happened..
(Well I'm not a guy who judge other people through only their physical appearance~)

Without any doubts,
I got the job easily,
cause I had quite a nice resume~
(Working experiences since 8 years old, anyone??)

She's a very kind and caring girl~
Working with her is quite interesting and relaxing,
since she's an optimism person and a really kind friend-and-supervisor..
In addition,
we (plus the manager) are the only 3 chinese out of the 13 employees in the whole restaurant..
Thus it makes our bond really tight on each other~

A few months later,
the Day of Destiny had finally came..
I wouldn't be the one who I am now if it wasn't that day~
What happened that day is still very fresh in my mind,
like it had been implanted into my brain through some sort of high-tech devices..

It was 19th September 2004..
Marrybrown had an event in a primary school's open field at Kepong Lama~
Being no choice since another employee who followed insisted to only serve drinks,
I am the only one left,
to wear the stupid CHIPMUNK mascot and entertain the children..

Unluckily,
it rained in the middle of the event..
Though it was not big enough to cause the event cancel,
but it's totally enough to make me sick..
(Try to imagine how hot it is inside a furry mascot + raining~)

After the event and when we're back to the restaurant,
I asked for the permission to leave earlier since I was sick and I had exams the next day..
She did approve the leave and helped me settle the rest of the things..

Back at home,
the fever was really killing me~
Panadol's that I had taken didn't even help a bit at all..
While I was lying on the sofa,
I received her SMS..
It's regarding her concern about my sickness and wishes to the exams I'm about to take~

At that moment,
I was really touching!
Even though my mum also didn't concern me as much as her~
(which she claimed that I should take all the consequences,
no matter good or bad since I'm the one who chose to work)
So yeah,
I had a crush on her..

At November,
which is about 8 months after I started working,
out of no where,
she suddenly had a boyfriend..
Before this,
she did mention that she's single and expressed her hatred towards flirtatious guy all the time..

Well that's that reason why~
Her boyfriend once cheated on her and she had already broke up with him when I first met her..
And now,
he had won her back~

It really SUCKS you know??
Have to see her boyfriend come to fetch her after work everytime the shop close~
It's like peeling your heart piece by piece using a really sharp knife T.T

Of all the time,
I didn't have the chance to see the face of her boyfriend
(he always waiting for her in his car..),
until the movie - Kung Fu by Stephen Chow was on theatre~
I managed to get the movie tickets of the first day it premiered and I asked her out..

She did agree,
but also asked me back to get 8 extra tickets for her friends and also BOYFRIEND!
What even hurts me more is,
this fella turned out to be just an ordinary person!

I mean like,
you can easily find a dozen of people who totally or almost matched his face beside the road!
Oh GOD,
is there still any fairness left in this world??

Not long after that,
I could take it no more but to resign~
Yep,
the feeling of watching the sweetness of their love had overwhelmed the feeling of I missing her..

I never saw her after that..
And now,
we just SMS each other wishing messages,
during holidays & her birthday..
Nothing more, nothing less~



In addition, the phone I used back then (Nokia 8310) was lost at year 2005, which had all the meaningful messages of CS & P in it, while I was riding my motorbike~ Guess it's destiny though haiz.. Well, I got her number in my mind all the time, so it didn't hurt much~

After viewing my blog so far, you may had judged me as a flirtatious person.. I know, I always fall in love with someone while still have feeling with the previous girl.. And after I started to concentrate on the new girl, I starting to forget the previous one.. But hey, at least I didn't hurt anyone physically or mentally so far~ It's all ONE-SIDED LOVE, so suck it up (for those hypocrites)!

What I wanna emphasize is, I am a person who is very serious when it comes to relationship matters in all circumstances.. But this even went further from that~ I even had the impulse to confess to her and ask her to marry me.. Crazy right?? I was just a boy who turning 15 years old back then, while she was 20 years old~

The conclusion is, it's really sad when a relationship failed to have any outcomes due to externalities, and especially when it comes to AGE! Nonetheless, it's already nearly impossible for one to met his/her soulmate at the right place and the right time~ Thus come to the famous cliche & fallout of life..
We all will met the 3 most important person in our lives :
1. The one who you first loved
2. The one who you loved the most
3. The one who loved you the most
Anyhow, the one we end up togther, will never be the same person of all I mentioned above.. How sad it is right??

P.S. This blog will be updated every weekend FOR SURE until further notification, so do remember to check for latest updates ^^

HINT : The 6th story, which I claimed as another (one of the) best, did share similiarities with this story at the fundamental level..

Labels: love stories, one-sided love, relationship, third love

Ryousuke was here at 3:45 PM

Okay, this is actually the first time I kept my promises on updating my blog weekly haha ^^ Anyway, I received some comments from my friends (through MSN) that they felt sad for me due to the previous post~ Well, don't be my fellow friends.. It's just never meant to be~ I am a hopeless romantic and optimism, I still believed that my soulmate is still out there, waiting for me to find her ^^

I know I had mentioned that I won't updated my daily life here, but I will still talk a bit about whatever happened around me lately lar~ Just a bit only :)

Recently, I had been working in a telemarketing company since I'm having my semester break and I only found out that I had a-whole-month holiday after it started.. Mun Wei and Don Shue invited me there to work and be their colleagues.. But soon after I started working, most of them had resigned~ I pissed cause I felt like being conned, and wonder why they resigned out of a sudden.. Last Friday, I finally figured it out - the team leaders had been forcing employees to work overtime, claimed that it's a COMPULSORY STAY BACK if individual can't achieve daily sales target.. And last Friday, the team leader did really piss me off !

I mean, I worked in a telemarketing company before.. I know the pressure of being a telemarketer, but FORCING people to "VOLUNTEERILY WORK OVERTIME", come on, GIMME A BREAK ! 8 hours of working time + 1 hour lunch break + THE FREAKING 2 HOURS O.T.?? I still haven't count the return transport and preparation time !

Mun Wei said that I don't have the balls to stand up against them before.. Guess what, Mun Wei?? I don't blame you, you just haven't seen the other side of my personality only~ For what I did, I just don't wanna make the situation embarrassing for both me and other people.. I am a person which can tolerate to almost everything and anyone, but once I marked you as my enemy - A piece of advise, stay alert for the rest of your life PUNK! After they pushed me twice to work overtime on Friday, I just ran off (after working hours) and didn't even go to work on Saturday (another COMPULSORY they claimed since we only work 5 days a week..)~ On Monday, I will straight away hand up my resignation letter.. If they dare to push me again, HAR, we shall see what will happen~

Almost out of the topic ^^ Now you know, don't try my temper, although I did seem very nice time after time.. I got my principles~ Back to the story:

In the previous post,
I did mention that I met CS in the 2nd year of my high school life..
well,
that's the turning point where I starting to put down C~

CS is my classmate..
She is a girl sitting not far from my desk~
That time,
my friend - Mathew and Seth were fighting for her almost everyday..
Not literally lar of course,
but argue'ing and compete'ing in almost everything to make her impressed~

It started to make me thinking,
"Is she really that nice till there're so many people fighting for her??"
Because she still had a lot of other admirers lining up for her,
like around 50 boys you know~
She even being voted as one of the most prettiest girls in the whole school !
That's the time I started to observing her..

After a few weeks,
I realized that she's that kind of girl that really nice, gentle..
Or should I say, "Good Good Girl"~
Anything seem nice about her,
but a bad thing about that was,
I starting to get attracted to her !

During that period,
we students used to play a penpal game called "Little Angel" (in chinese)..
Everyone who participated only can register using a fake name,
and look for the fake-name list on the board to find penpal & write letter to each other..
Only one chosen person knew all the participants' real names and she's in charge of all the mail transfer~

Anyway,
I did accidentally found out her fake name in this game..
So I started to write her letters..
We got really closed (in letters) and knew about each other alot through the mails~

A year passed..
Luckily,
we're still in the same class at the 3rd year of high school~

At the beginning of the year,
due to the fact that I was being sent living in the school's dorm because my father have to work in Kelantan for a couple months,
I grew taller quickly..
I mean like, from 152 cm to 165 cm in 3 months!
I was like "WOW! Finally I'm not a dwarf haha ^^"
It also makes me became more confident in relationships..

I started to send her gifts..
I still remember,
it's a big box of chocolate at Valentines and a pair of crystal swam at her birthday on May~
Though she absent on Valentines,
I still put the chocolate in her drawer..
Which made me can't sleep well that whole night,
worrying that the chocolate's gonna melt haha ^^

Even so,
I still have no guts to confess to her.. (Procrastinate?? haha~)
We both chose the different streams - science for her and art for me in the 4th year,
and never talked to each other since..
But we still SMS each other once a while~

She did find herself a boyfriend later on..
I'm not a person that will go to interfere people's relationships,
so I just let the feelings slipped..
Because I knew that,
deep down inside her heart,
I was just nobody but a normal friend for her..
It's now almost 4 years for their relationship,
and it's still counting~


As a conclusion, I did realize that I was just an immature boy back then.. A boy who felt lonely and only want to have a girl by my side~ I should said that luckily we didn't end up together, cause I could just screw up both of our lives if we did..

Looking on the bright side, this story did teach me a lesson~ After these 'things' happened, I spent many months tried to discover the truth of relationships.. All of these had been a geol to me, which helped me realized that, "LOVE is ain't just about feelings, but also responsibilities !" It had affected my view towards relationships for ever since ! That day, I truly transformed, and became what I am today..

P.S. Stay tuned for the 3rd one next week, so far (one of) the best - both 3rd & 6th

Labels: love stories, one-sided love, relationship, second love

Ryousuke was here at 2:33 PM

First of all, for this year's very first blog post (I know, I know.. You guys have been mocking me non-stop for keeping this blog dead for almost 1/2 year~), I'll begin with my 1st love story(finally..)~

It's not that I don't wanna start it soon after the previous blog, just that I'm not so comfortable to recall all those sad/painful memories to write this post (not excuses okay~).. I did promise myself to update this blog after my exams which ended on friday, but there're a lot of stuff I've been busying nowadays (investment, financial, studies..) that I almost wanna give up this blog..

However, just right after the exam, I had some wierd dreams.. you know, those kinda dreams which you thought it's so real and logic to happen in real life, only to realize that it's a dream when you woke up due to the alarm you set?? some more it's 3 CONSECUTIVE NIGHTS, all regarding my past relationship, like a sequel to my current situation.. 3 nights for 3 girls wtf~ So I have no choice but to take it as a hint to update my blog (I know it's lame, but damn make a lot of sense for me lar~)

By the way, for those who dont know yet, the theme for this blog is about the true side of myself, not some sort of diaries which other bloggers were doing.. so I won't be updating this blog so frequent like once every day.. It's more like a blog which record the important moment of mine~ but I will try to update it every weekend lar in the few following months, since I still have 6 stories to go (yep it's a total of 7, cause I kinda give up on the 7th.. so no harm revealing it ^^ Don't think she will read my blog either..)

Here's a list for the coming up stories' girl names:
1.C
2.CS
3.P
4.JY (not you Jie Yao, don't get it wrong!)
5.C
6.W
7.V
I believe that our brain do have some functions that keep us from recalling those painful memories we had gone through (What you called that? 'Percievable Memories'??).. So this list is no pun intended for insulting or humiliating anyone nor creating an awkwardness situation~ It's more like a script for me to write out the details of each event (I didn't use the word 'relationship' because it never was~) I've been through..

This 1st Love Story is originally from my previous (chinese) blog.. So I don't have to put much effort to recall those (again..) sad/painful memories, just need to translate it into english (which also 1 of the motivation for me to start blogging again ^^)~ Here it goes :

When I was 8 years old,
a kid which studying primary school standard 2,
I had been picked to enter the best class in my standard due to my impressive results..

Her name is C..
I still remember,
I saw her at the hall for the first time..
Not much impression of her,
just thought that she was kinda chatty and a bit noisy haha~
But then when we were back in the classroom,
she had been assigned by teacher to sit beside me..
I was like "OMG, I'm so dead this time~"

As I predicted,
I was quarelling with her almost all the time the whole year,
and the noises was even big enough to cause other students to complaint about it to the teacher haha ^^

Well,
the year ended like almost in a blink..
But during the year-end holiday,
when I was at home alone,
I can't help but keep picturing of her,
and what happened throughout the whole year..
I wonder why~

In the following 3 years,
we're still in the same class..
I always staring at her secretly,
and avoid eye contact with her by turning my face away~

At that time,
I knew,
that I had a crush on her..
This secret had lied in the deepest of my heart,
and I had never told anyone about it before~

However,
at the year-end of my standard 5,
I found out that she'll be transfer to another class~
I thought about confess to her,
but I chicken out at the end..

The last year of my primary school life was a busy one..
I'd been focus on my studies for UPSR and other inter-school competition~
Even though I did score well in UPSR and being awarded in the competition,
it still didn't help a lot to overcome my feeling towards her..

During the last month of standard 6,
I felt that I can't stand the feeling anymore,
so I chat with my 2 best friends and asked for their opinions..
However I didn't take their advice and confess,
and I told them not to tell another single soul on earth about these~

Well the order is just useless,
my friends were those kind of idiots which can't keep a secret for more than a day~
And in just no time,
the words were spreading all over the classes who knew both of us..
it was so embarrassing till I almost forgot how I got through the whole month~

A while after that,
I was invited to her birthday party (surprisingly)~
When I finally decided to go and made an appearance in the party,
all I found out was it's full of her fellow classmates,
who I don't know any of them at all..
It's like her only-for-my-classmates birthday party,
everyone staring at me like I was a freaking monster~
Damn I was hoping there's a hole for me to hide in at that moment..
(Not to mention I made a bad impression to her dad of being too playful~)

After the graduation,
we went to different high school for further studies,
and I didn't see her anymore since then..
My feeling toward her last almost till the 2nd year of my high school life,
till I met another girl, CS~

Dramatically,
we did accidentally contact up with each other before my high school's graduation..
Honestly,
the feeling had eventually distinguished~
So after 8 years counted from the starting (till that moment),
I can finally conclude 'Thus the end of my FIRST LOVE..'~



If you happened to know how to read chinese,
here's the chinese version which is more in detail~

Well, that's my first love.. I did regret of it, but hey, that's life.. You'll never end as what you're expecting.. I am who I am, a boy who long for relationship while still remain single and have no guts to confess cause always thinking too much for her aka our future~

The next post will be up by next weekend, 2 weeks top~

Labels: first love, love stories, one-sided love, relationship

Ryousuke was here at 2:53 PM

year 1995
*Standard 1

year 1999
*passport photo xP

year 2000
*Standard 6

year 2001
*Form 1

year 2002
*Fatty Sam.. haha

year 2003
*working during holiday.. slim down ^^

year 2005
*Form 5, taken during (a boring) class..

end of year 2006
*My driving licence photo, looked like samseng~

CNY 2007
*Yep, I still need to work during CNY

August 2007
*Looked a lot better without second-hand smokes after quiting my job..

Recent photo
*HMC PROM NITE 2007, bored but meaningful for me..

I couldn't find any of my baby photo so far, so I'll just leave it next time to upload it when I found where it is~ Now on, you have photos to refer to my stories coming up later on ^^

(Oh crap.. Statistics' quiz in 5 hours, but I haven't even start looking at the textbook yet.. Screw you, DIE & BURNT IN HELL STATISTICS!)

Ryousuke was here at 4:36 AM

actually I have nothing to blog.. just that I had promised jieyao to renew my blog.. so, here I am~

Speaking of renewing my blog, I had decided the future path of my blogpost.. Since that most of my colleagues in HMC doesn't qute familiar with my history yet, so I will be start posting my stories.. To be more specific, 6 stories of my past relationships.. (actually it's 7, but the current one is still shrouded in mysteries & variables, so the least mentioned it the better ^^ ) It's not gonna be Legen- wait for it -Dary, but I can assure you that it's totally fun to view and tease on me later on..

I bet some ppl who knew me and now looking into my blog would said, "Here comes Sam's big talk about relationship again.. Why am I not surprised?? blah blah blah..." You know, people nowadays had became way too irrational when dealing with relationships.. I'd seen too many cases happened around me~ TRY ME ! I just dont care what people would said.. I had the freedom to write, you had the freedom to view.. If you feel offended or pissed off, I'm sorry.. There's a red cross on the top right corner of the window, feel free to click it!
(Thinking of the bright side, I'm setting up awareness towards the "Fast Food Relationship" - You paid, get what you want & moved on!)

Anyway, it's 0439 in the morning.. Sorry if my blog is messy or over-bias but hey, I'm pretty blur now.. having no sleep for nearly 1x hours ! s0 do leave comments for me to correct me or to give me some reviews..



Last few things in my mind:
1. I'm sorry bout you, Jose Mourinho.. hope that you can find a better job
2. I hope I can remember to bring your High Tech mouse to you tml, Mun Wei..
3. And finally, HOOORAY ! In a couple hours HEROES & HIMYM new season premiere episodes will be on-air.. CHEERS ! (I'm not too into Prison Break BTW)

Labels: Future

Ryousuke was here at 4:25 AM

HIMYM

I'll leave it to my friend to explain more about this comedy :

This comedy series was first introduced to me by a friend. How I Met Your Mother. After watchin only a mere 4 episodes, I have to say that I have already caught on to it (since the first actually). It's great. It's light and cheesy and does not go into those complicated relationships (like Friends). It's just pure fun entertainment.

Currently downloading the entire Season 1. Season 3 is about to begin next month (same week as Heroes Season 2 and Prison Break Season 3) BUT, BUT, BUT, the main character - Tes Mosby still have not met the mother (his wife). =.=. LOL.

Nevertheless, it is funny, not legendary, funny. Worth a watch. XD

Cited from http://disenchantedmunz.blogspot.com/

P/S I'm the one who introduce(more correctly - force) him to have a peek on this comedy q^^p

The show is structured as the main character, Ted, in the year 2030 telling his son and daughter about the events that led to his meeting their mother, which begin in 2005. The show frequently explores the concepts of stories and storytelling usually with multiple flashbacks occurring each episode..

I first found this hilarious comedy in Astro Star World channel.. and out of it silly jokes and serious talk about relationship, I was totally mad and addicted on it~~

On the other hand, I found my point of view about relationships almost 99% matches Ted Mosby's.. thats another reason why I'm so addicted on HIMYM

Ted Mosby

Isn't he handsome + cute?? You will love him as you find out more of his characteristics.. Nowadays, it's almost impossible to find a guy who are so serious in relationships and ready for a commitment..

*raise hand : An exception here xP

Labels: Reviews

Ryousuke was here at 12:57 PM