2nd Love Story

Okay, this is actually the first time I kept my promises on updating my blog weekly haha ^^ Anyway, I received some comments from my friends (through MSN) that they felt sad for me due to the previous post~ Well, don't be my fellow friends.. It's just never meant to be~ I am a hopeless romantic and optimism, I still believed that my soulmate is still out there, waiting for me to find her ^^

I know I had mentioned that I won't updated my daily life here, but I will still talk a bit about whatever happened around me lately lar~ Just a bit only :)

Recently, I had been working in a telemarketing company since I'm having my semester break and I only found out that I had a-whole-month holiday after it started.. Mun Wei and Don Shue invited me there to work and be their colleagues.. But soon after I started working, most of them had resigned~ I pissed cause I felt like being conned, and wonder why they resigned out of a sudden.. Last Friday, I finally figured it out - the team leaders had been forcing employees to work overtime, claimed that it's a COMPULSORY STAY BACK if individual can't achieve daily sales target.. And last Friday, the team leader did really piss me off !

I mean, I worked in a telemarketing company before.. I know the pressure of being a telemarketer, but FORCING people to "VOLUNTEERILY WORK OVERTIME", come on, GIMME A BREAK ! 8 hours of working time + 1 hour lunch break + THE FREAKING 2 HOURS O.T.?? I still haven't count the return transport and preparation time !

Mun Wei said that I don't have the balls to stand up against them before.. Guess what, Mun Wei?? I don't blame you, you just haven't seen the other side of my personality only~ For what I did, I just don't wanna make the situation embarrassing for both me and other people.. I am a person which can tolerate to almost everything and anyone, but once I marked you as my enemy - A piece of advise, stay alert for the rest of your life PUNK! After they pushed me twice to work overtime on Friday, I just ran off (after working hours) and didn't even go to work on Saturday (another COMPULSORY they claimed since we only work 5 days a week..)~ On Monday, I will straight away hand up my resignation letter.. If they dare to push me again, HAR, we shall see what will happen~

Almost out of the topic ^^ Now you know, don't try my temper, although I did seem very nice time after time.. I got my principles~ Back to the story:

In the previous post,
I did mention that I met CS in the 2nd year of my high school life..
well,
that's the turning point where I starting to put down C~

CS is my classmate..
She is a girl sitting not far from my desk~
That time,
my friend - Mathew and Seth were fighting for her almost everyday..
Not literally lar of course,
but argue'ing and compete'ing in almost everything to make her impressed~

It started to make me thinking,
"Is she really that nice till there're so many people fighting for her??"
Because she still had a lot of other admirers lining up for her,
like around 50 boys you know~
She even being voted as one of the most prettiest girls in the whole school !
That's the time I started to observing her..

After a few weeks,
I realized that she's that kind of girl that really nice, gentle..
Or should I say, "Good Good Girl"~
Anything seem nice about her,
but a bad thing about that was,
I starting to get attracted to her !

During that period,
we students used to play a penpal game called "Little Angel" (in chinese)..
Everyone who participated only can register using a fake name,
and look for the fake-name list on the board to find penpal & write letter to each other..
Only one chosen person knew all the participants' real names and she's in charge of all the mail transfer~

Anyway,
I did accidentally found out her fake name in this game..
So I started to write her letters..
We got really closed (in letters) and knew about each other alot through the mails~

A year passed..
Luckily,
we're still in the same class at the 3rd year of high school~

At the beginning of the year,
due to the fact that I was being sent living in the school's dorm because my father have to work in Kelantan for a couple months,
I grew taller quickly..
I mean like, from 152 cm to 165 cm in 3 months!
I was like "WOW! Finally I'm not a dwarf haha ^^"
It also makes me became more confident in relationships..

I started to send her gifts..
I still remember,
it's a big box of chocolate at Valentines and a pair of crystal swam at her birthday on May~
Though she absent on Valentines,
I still put the chocolate in her drawer..
Which made me can't sleep well that whole night,
worrying that the chocolate's gonna melt haha ^^

Even so,
I still have no guts to confess to her.. (Procrastinate?? haha~)
We both chose the different streams - science for her and art for me in the 4th year,
and never talked to each other since..
But we still SMS each other once a while~

She did find herself a boyfriend later on..
I'm not a person that will go to interfere people's relationships,
so I just let the feelings slipped..
Because I knew that,
deep down inside her heart,
I was just nobody but a normal friend for her..
It's now almost 4 years for their relationship,
and it's still counting~


As a conclusion, I did realize that I was just an immature boy back then.. A boy who felt lonely and only want to have a girl by my side~ I should said that luckily we didn't end up together, cause I could just screw up both of our lives if we did..

Looking on the bright side, this story did teach me a lesson~ After these 'things' happened, I spent many months tried to discover the truth of relationships.. All of these had been a geol to me, which helped me realized that, "LOVE is ain't just about feelings, but also responsibilities !" It had affected my view towards relationships for ever since ! That day, I truly transformed, and became what I am today..

P.S. Stay tuned for the 3rd one next week, so far (one of) the best - both 3rd & 6th